two months may not seen as a long period, but arriving in august made me super relieved and i could breathe well a little. its not that evil, yet it feels super long and exhausting. i even didn't check up on my ACNL for more than three weeks now!
those suffering times usually shapes me into something else that could create some kind of monstrosity, and you are right. also, i got my first mechanical keyboard back on july so im really enjoying my time to write these things out! this post is my first post with this keyboard, so expect long words and unnecessary things because i just love the click-clack of this thing. i dont know why an object could bring me this so much joy.
in this post, i will separate those up into smaller summaries and talk about whatever i have found and enjoyed for the past two months that maybe would sums up whatever has been happening inside my life. its not that interesting, but at least it could make up my absence of not updating this blog for a while.
A. william beckett in emo nite
that is super insane. if you remember my last post about discovering you might have noticed by the academy is... and thinking that my review is very biased and not coherent, you are in for a ride. the way i way flustered and kept huh-ing for the whole week is so funny to me. i think you'll understand more about it if you saw the whole shebang on internet. its crazy and i feel like i have seen some victorian girl's ankles!
B. backrooms
the most awesomesauce film ever this year and i'm not joking at all. i've watched it on theater with my old friend and we enjoyed it so much, we kept talking about it over a coffee until 10PM (sprinkled in some gossips and yadda yadda). some cool aspects i adored so much about backrooms is the angles taken on specific scene where it just make sense to me, feels like the cogs inside my head are finally turning and working again after several months of negligence.
i really like movies where i need to sit down and think about it for hours in order for me to understand and able to talk about it to my friends for hours. the way their insight clicked with mine is super awesome and i really liked it. i think backrooms is a very special film to me this year (salmeokji isn't that cool, i'm sorry) because i get to meet with my old friend and hang out with them for hours talking about this awesome film. my surface level knowledge of backrooms and liminal things also made this film more enjoyable for me to watch.
the bad thing about this experience is how some people doesnt respect theatre places anymore like how they used to. a guy two seats next to my right is sitting with his feet up the seat and kept talking about some scene he thought 'boring' and mentioning it to his friends as if his opinion matters and he tried to be super 'niche' by talking over the dialogue on how different it was to liminal content on social media (of course its different you dumbass? its two different media!). my blood is actually boiling because i really want to enjoy this so much and yet the guy talks and talks and talks. i forgot how many times i keep shushing his loud ass up, he isnt that cool at all.
uuugh i hope he got explosive diarrhea.
C. baking woe cookies
i will say something that is stereotypical: baking is actually not that hard because all you have to do is see the numbers and make it match! the cookies was not that bad nor good, but its pretty decent for me who did it all by myself from the scratch. it was chocolate chips, then for the second one is matcha. i also love how customizable it is and how it allows me to do whatever i want to it. its not the best, but its also not the greatest, hence why i named it woe cookies. i tried to make the woes inside my head flows into the cookies and made whoever ate it feel the woe and the sadness i have felt for months. the woe also affecting the shape of it, so its mostly too big, too thick, too crispy, and not a single perfect cookies exist on both batch.
D. my first art market experience
i have never attend an art market ever (once, if you count the field data research. but its more like a k-pop art market instead of art market) because i bought it after sale or asked my friend who's selling on the market. actually, its more of a distance matters, so that is why i asked my friends. its nice to have friends from every way possible. #friendcore and maybe also #hopecore.
so when this art market held in my city and the ticket is alright for my wallet, i immediately bought one then i legit made a list of what booth i want to visit + what stuffs i wanted to buy. its super fun to do it because you know what you want and what you want to get, and its also saves me so much time. i only spent like twenty minutes inside for my wish list and twenty minute more for the super long photobooth queue and probably twenty minutes more for my friend's list.
its actually super fun to see the booths and their concept and their fun stuffs. kinda inspires me to make stuffs and sell it, but i dont have the skill to sales and promote everything. i sucks so bad at those kind of things, like sucks, sucks.
E. weird dream person
my two best friends knew about this thing and i think this is the weirdest thing i have ever dream in this year. so basically:
this person is flirting to me in my dreams while they were talking about their interest (or hyperfixation, i think) and its about bollywood films. they kept talking about it and how they want to buy an ipad or something similiar, but their hands keep trying to do things to me and all i can do is just stuttering and be super awkward for no reason!
that dream.. freaks me out so bad.. but its interesting to me. interesting in a very chud way of life. i think you get what i mean by this. so, i told this story to my best friends and i ended up making several picrews about me and them, making me thinking about creating new oc and do stuff to it. again, i think you understand what i mean if you are loser enough to be or to feel what i feel that day. its very bizzare and it also haunts me for weeks. days, even.
F. side bangs shenanigans
i finally push myself to get bangs! its been two week-ish by now, and its kinda wonky and not that awesome. i should have styled it better, but you know me, so i think its kind of alright and its not that bad. i wont talk about it more, i dont really know how i feel towards it.
G. walking on weekends
i forgot when was the first time i started to do this, but honestly, its so fun! i get to walk whenever and whatever and no matter how long it was, i really enjoyed it. its so rewarding to see the 10,000 steps notification on my watch because it pushes me to walk even more until i feel super tired and dizzy.
this reminds me back then when i was kind of strict to myself about walking and eating (i think you know what i mean), where i was able to walk 6KM in the most unwalkable neighborhood ever and i still could walk home safely (and dizzily). it was in the afternoon, so i dont really feel nauseous or some sort. the type of walking i would never ever do again is straight up walking at 6AM right after i woke up, walking through the neighborhood and took the most steep area ever that is usually busy, complete with no food or drink at all.
i think that is the closest thing i have ever feel towards fainting. it was horrible because i was alone, the minimarket havent open because its like 8AM and im in my way home but the only way through is super steep. not really steep, it was like walking down for a couple miles and then walking up and up until the road felt normal. that is super crazy, and that is also the moment where i realizes that im pushing myself too far.
this weekend walking is the safest thing i could do to myself, i think. the last time i did it was me with my friend who is currently staying for awhile in my city, so i asked them to walk with me here and there. it was actually fun and i really enjoyed it a lot, because we get to talk so much about stuffs and university, also fun fact: the doctor who attended their birth is also the same doctor that attended mine on the same hospital! they are older than me, so hearing that made me amazed. who knows! we also bought tianlala and do oshikatsu of our very different favorite person. its super fun!
H. enstars
i think this is the funniest and the most fun i have ever had. i was talking about it to my best friend and she asked me about my favorite, so i answered that i liked sakuma rei. it went uphill since that day, because im writing this post as im listening to esupuri (special for princess!) because i adore esu and im interested in owning a nui.
the thing that flicked me into thinking that i wanted a nui is because i kept seeing so many reels about babies and kids and how i feel super motherly towards them but they are a really big and expensive responsibilities (also its because i dont want to get married, im still in my early twenties) so i hit her up and said everything from a to z, then she said bet. i cant wait for my first time experience in owning a nui, and i think this will be fun.
i think that is all for this post. maybe i would update again like tomorrow or maybe in two days, depends on what i have found and other things, so bye-bye for now!